Misinterpret / Misunderstanding

After few days of gloomiest & tears shedding.  With a clearer stage of mind, I went thru all Hoo & my messages from 30/1 onward. I realised I might have misinterpret what he meant in those messages. And as a impulse person in nature, my replies might lead to some misunderstanding thruout our conversations! And I went to read his blog too & only to realise & feel for him now. Too late I know! Yet most people will only learn to cherish when they lose it!

In order to clear any confusions about us. I decided to text & let him kmow my thoughts/ feels about those messages etc.. I don't want any misunderstandings to cause us into  this present stage.  Hoo did not reply much. Out of 10 texts, he replied 5. Quite negative replies ... 

In one of the messages he did mentioned he has been trying thruout our relationship. That puzzle me! I told him if he says he tries in his own way,  with me unaware & not knowing what's happening here is not right & also not being fair to me.  He should discuss/talk to me about the problems! And by knowing our problems & both parties try at the same time is the correct way for a couples to work thing out.  If both try & failed then at least we have to move on from there. Now, the problem is I want him to talk about the problems yet he don't really want to discuss about it and keep things to himself! And leave me here, mind wandering & guessing.. I told him don't let his hectic works affect him & his thinking.

Trying so hard not to text him for the past few days but can't help! I know at this points of time, both of us need to cool down & think hard. I've been thru that before so I know he will get really annoyed & irritated  with all the messages from me for the past few days!  But I still lower my pride & go ahead  skype him the last few long messages last night. I don't want any regrets in future for not trying hard enough to salvage this relationship! Well, have said all I wanted him to know.  But his reply was really hostile -> Hi, U have a good rest and stop thinking. What will be will be.. And I replied I think I got it liao. If he needs help to start his car engines while he's away these 2 weeks let me know & also this will be the last time i will msg him and won't "fan" him anymore. He replied me -> Ok thks alot.

Oh gosh, my heart-beat stop at that moment i saw this reply. Thks alot to me for wanting to help him start car engine or  finally I'll stop texting him anymore? The answer is clear across.. And I've done my best at this moment liao & will not bother him anymore. I think when one's mind is set, no matter what I said will not get into his mind eventually. I really hope we will not have any regrets in future..


人往往等到失去后才懂得珍惜。但也不该说放就放啊！一点思念都没有！无情无意，真忍心！

毕竟该说的都说了, 现在能做的也做了。我想将来应该不会有遗憾了。因为我有尽力尝试挽留我们！